The Things They Do

Please don’t tell me something
I already know
I know you love me
And want to see me grow
But I know that I am struggling
With who I used to be
And now I just keep trying
To show people the real, new me

My past is one that I can’t hide
Why does it hurt you so?
It was someone I used to be
I just can’t let that go.
The memories it stores
Are not ones of pride
Just crazy little memories
I still laugh at time to time.

Lately I’ve been failing
At turning my life around
But I promise I’m improving, but
It’s harder that I thought, I’ve found.
And sometimes it’s easier to hide
And not confront
But I know life can’t be fixed
With alcohol and cigarette butts.

Lately it’s been hard for me
To stand up for my God
And I just keep on failing
And bringing myself down
But you’re not making it easier
By pointing out what you see
You haven’t been in my shoes
Please just pray for me

I cannot just abandon my old friends
I love them as much as you
I can only keep trying to not lower myself
To do the things they do.